Last Saturday, June 4th, I participated in my first trail run with my husband Mike and our dear friends, Stephanie and Daniel.
I have been hiking for over a year….climbing mountains with steep elevation gains, so I thought this would not be a huge challenge. I only ran the 5K (3.3 mi) and my husband took on the 15K (9.3mi).
This run was HARDER than I even anticipated. Running up hills, is much different than walking up them and I struggled. A couple of these hills were”no joke” and I was impressed with the men and women who ran up them with seemingly no effort.
(Disclaimer: the director of this trail run, did tell me this was the hardest trail they have offered for Rock It Racing and that I did good considering its difficulty…so I felt a tad better and a little justified. HA)
Winded….I finished, not with the best time…..but I did it and I was proud of myself for showing up and doing something “new”.
Would I do it again…..???? YES. And I am already committed to their holiday trail run series starting in October. If anything to improve my time and to continue my quest in thriving and living my best life ever.
I felt great. I was proud of myself.
Then Monday came along and the reality of this hit me square in the face:
Oh yea. I still have cancer.
Every 3 months, I have to get my tumor markers checked, and then go meet with my oncologist…..every 6 months I need to be scanned to check for progression.
And while I have been stable now for 2 years… this doesn’t get any easier. I become stressed and very emotional…..I often cry. Because I know that everything could change….
But I remind myself, that I have a wonderful life. Even with cancer.
I remind myself that I know how to “LIVE”. Even with cancer.
I am grateful for all of the experiences I have had and will continue to have. Even with cancer.
That no matter what……I am grateful for the time I do have, and will continue to live intentionally and authentically me. Even with cancer.
I am not your glass half full girl….I am the glass half empty girl.
And I look at that glass half empty and I commit to making those last few swallows the BEST.EVER. Even with cancer.
More trails running?
Yes, please. Even with cancer.
Cancer Update: My tumor markers are low and I continue to be stable. Upon a back and forth discussion, my oncologist agreed to let me go for 6 months until she sees me next. I AM SO HAPPY.
……and I will get back to documenting our Iceland trip.