Today’s post is written by our Brave Artist Toni Imsen
I was surprised by the amount of responses I received when I wrote this poem last year. I don’t why I was surprised. It seems to be a common experience, regardless of who you are.
I too am lonely. Yes, I said it. I’m lonely.
Sure, it seems I have plenty of friends & family, work, hobbies and a variety of things to do. However, loneliness does not discriminate. It is an equal opportunity offender.
Loneliness seems to hit me at random times, as well as predictable times such as holidays. Yes, holidays are the worst! Sometimes I prefer a dentist appointment to a holiday.
I’ve pondered the lonely thing many times. Why is it like this? Why do I feel this way? Is this some perpetual pity party? Can I be uninvited to this party?
I’ve discovered a common factor in the state of lonely. Powerlessness seems to be the underlying and deadly current feeding into the sea of lonely.
Feeling powerless is the most lonely and vulnerable place to live.
Powerlessness for me looks like feeling misunderstood, experiencing disconnect, sadness without reason, wanting to be a part and knowing I’m not. It feels like vulnerability without an expression. Trouble is, when you’re in it, you are unable to define it and it seems there is no remedy for it.
The truth is, lonely is real, vulnerable moments happen, but I am not powerless.
Lonely isn’t forever, it comes and goes, but perhaps it has it’s place. I do know that I have been set apart for a purpose, and sometimes that does resemble loneliness and look like isolation in some ways.
My key in recognizing and surviving lonely is to remember that lonely isn’t my identity.
Toni is an artist, an author and an activist who spends her time creating works of art to bring love and light to the world. She writes with a purpose to encourage and empower humanity. Toni married her wonderful husband in 1990, is the mother of 3 beautiful human beings, and the grandmother of 1. Toni is an ordained minister, a business leader, and a former homemaker. You may visit her website at Toniimsen.com.