Today’s post is written by Brave Writer Stacey Lozano.
I’m a scared-y cat. It’s really quite simply, there is a big mountain of fear which stands in front of me when I am ready to do almost anything.
I used to think I had to stop feeling that way before I could do anything, but I’m thinking differently now. Now I think I have do things regardless of how I feel.
Taking risks are scary. There’s no two ways about it. If it was a sure thing, it wouldn’t be a risk. But so much of life is exactly that: a risk. So for us to wait until things are smooth and sure and we feel confident, well a lot of stuff simply wont be done.
This coming Saturday I’m attending my first tournament as a brown belt in American Taekwondo. I have been relatively quiet about it, not making too big of a deal, simply moving forward towards the tournament one day, one practice at a time.
I am scared out of my wits, if I’m going to be honest with you.
I keep telling myself not to beat myself, and to simply do the best I can, and breathe through it. I’m scared I’m going to lose balance or forget my kada. I’m scared I’m going to turn my back when I spar. I’m scared I’m going to bow at the wrong time, or say the wrong thing. Oh my word the things I could mess up seem to be innumerable.
But I’m moving towards it anyway, accepting that I simply may have to do this scared but at least I’m going to do it.
I’ll let you know how it goes.
The Oklahoma Karate Association puts on a great tournament, folks. We had such a good number of people show up, and it ran fairly smoothly. The heart everyone showed was outstanding. No one likes to lose, and everyone wants to win, but the hugs, smiles, and laughter after each bout, the reaching out and building bridges regardless of who won or lost, that’s what it is all about. It’s exciting.
Our group arrived fairly early so we had time to get fully nervous, or at least I did. Laugh with me, because honestly what else can we do? The things that scared me?
:: I was the one to introduce our group.
:: I had one other competitor who has been going to tournaments for a while.
:: I did mess up my kada and lost balance.
:: I took advantage of a shot and hit her in the face (which is allowed but oh so hard to do).
I told one of the others that the more we go to the tournaments and compete the better we will feel about attending them. There is still a level of stress, or nervousness, I am sure, but the unknown is taken away and that is huge. But make no mistake, I plan on pushing through that nervousness each time I compete.
Life is a lot like the tournament. We are going to be scared when we do somethings, for a variety of reasons. We have to simply push through that scared in order to live brave.
:: making changes
:: trying something new
:: going back to something old
:: taking a step away to assess
:: holding on tight
All of these things can bring about feelings of being unsure, scared, fearful, and nervousness. We can’t wait for the feeling to go away. We have to push through it and find the brave on the other side.
Stacey Lozano adores her dear husband and is ever so grateful for her oldest, his wife, and her youngest. She desires that all know how to protect themselves physically, spiritually, emotionally, and mentally. You can visit regularly with Stacey at http://staceydaze.blogspot.com