I Wear A Mask.

Today’s post is written by our Brave Artist Mariah Neilson

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I wear a beautiful mask.

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I wear this mask to hide my insecurities. I put on a front.  

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I want you to know me, but wait, not all of me. Just the parts that are good enough to look at. I want you to know the pretty parts of me and still like me. 

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I want you to take a quick glance and like what you see. But don’t look to close. If you do, you will see the parts of me that you won’t like.

 

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want you to be proud of me. Whether I am your daughter, sister, girlfriend, best friend or just a girl in your class, I want you to be glad you know me. 

I want your approval.

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I work hard for it. Trust me I do. I wear this beautiful mask for you. I try to be what you want me to be. I try to make you proud. I try to be what I think you want me to be.

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I want to be beautiful. So I work to fit your definition of beauty.

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I want you to tell me I am beautiful. Say it please. It reassures me. It builds my confidence. I look to you for my self worth.  I wear this beautiful mask for you.

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I idolize this mask. It comes before everything. This beautiful mask hides my pain and insecurities.

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I make sure my make up and hair will meet your standards. I put on fake lashes and paint my nails, so you will find me beautiful.

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I wear this mask because it is easier than letting people in.  

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I wrote this poem to reflect my desire to fit in and be perfect. For the longest time I believed the lie that I had to fit Cosmo’s definition of beauty, be a straight A genius and always say the right things.

Taking off the mask means that I am vulnerable. It allows people to see who I am. Being brave for me, means that every day I choose to take the mask off.

All pictures were taken and edited by Mariah Neilson through Treasured Hope Photography. 

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Mariah Neilson is 20 years old. She is a newly claimed artist, a Live Brave Artist, with a passion for photography, long walks and everything pink. She is in her third year of college,  working on her bachelors degree in Psychology with a minor in Global Cultural studies. She is a Resident Assistant to about 50 students. Her goal in life is to live a life that is full of grace and compassion. In free time she likes to write and explore this beautiful world around me. Mariah also writes on treasuredhope.wordpress.com

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4 thoughts on “I Wear A Mask.

  1. I love everything about this post Mya. So vulnerable, so brave. I think no matter how old we are, and experiences we go through, we have a tendency to put the mask on, when things get hard. Thank you for being real. ~Lesley

  2. I am so blessed to call you daughter. I could relate to your desire to fit in and be perfect. Your courage and strength never cease to amaze me. I love that I can see strength even in your vulnerability. Thank you for being real! Every picture spoke a thousand words! I love it when you remove the mask!

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