Today’s Post is written by our Brave Writer: Karen Asbra
He sat on the long flight home holding her.
She was so weak and lethargic.
A lady walked down the isle of the plane and as she passed him she commented on how cute and quiet the baby was. He thought to himself, she has no idea the true condition my child is in, how she was almost dying. He would give anything for a cry from her.
He continued to hold her close feeling the warmth of her body when he began crying asking the Lord to save her. All he could think about was saving her life but, as a father, he wrestled with the reality of how bad the situation was. For the last three days he had been watching his child dwindle away not knowing if she would live or die and he, as a father, was helpless.
There wasn’t anything He could do to save her.
Just then He heard the Father’s voice. The Father said, “Now you have an inkling of how I felt when I watched my Son die and I had the power to stop it but I chose not to.”
His jaw just about dropped to the floor as he sat there speechless and motionless tears streaming down his face. In his heart he replied, “Who are you and what kind of crazy radical love is this you have for me?”
It was one of those ‘aha’ moments you can only learn by life and experience. His understanding of God and His love for him just went to a deeper a level he never imagined his heart could reach.
That was my husband over 20 years ago as he held our first born. We had been on a mission trip to Odessa, Ukraine, when we had to make an emergency trip home with our daughter.
As a parent it is difficult for us to see our children in pain, sick, or even suffer terminal illness. We would gladly take their place. Yet, it is our Father in heaven, who sent His Son in our place. When we see our heavenly Father or even Jesus and what He did on the cross we don’t think of it as a brave act. Yet, it was. Our Father loved us so much and put His trust in us so much that He gave us His only begotten son.
It was on that trip home that I can honestly say that my husband and I learned how deep the Father’s love is for us. It took everything for us to hold ourselves together in the midst of the uncertainty of her illness and the depth of love for her.
Even though we pulled out every resource available to save her we knew that we had someone who understood our fears and pain.
We were not ready to let her go.
By His grace her life was spared. She is now a beautiful 22 year old young woman whom we are blessed to have in our life. It still rocks our world when we think of this time in our life. I don’t know if we can truly grasp the depth of love God has for us because I believe our human comprehension can only go so deep.
Today, as you go forward, just know that God knows you and He knows what you need and He loves you more than you can ever know.
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Karen Asbra is happily married to Lance Asbra and has 3 amazing children. She is a writer, song writer, and worship leader and enjoys bringing people into the presence and intimacy of God. You can visit Karen at her blog http://lanceandkarenasbra.com